If I Don’t Cough, Will You Still Come?
Mom went to bed for a nap and told me she was going to sleep. That is her usual way of asking me to come tuck her in. I didn’t say anything at the time. I stayed in my room to finish my yogurt, just taking a few minutes for myself.
When I went over a few minutes later, I saw she hadn’t covered herself properly. Since she’s been coughing more during the day lately, I said, “This is why you’re coughing.”
She hadn’t even coughed while alone, but she just replied, “If I don’t cough, how will you come out?”
The Emotional Sting
Hearing that was hurtful. It felt like a trap. It showed she is still very much aware of how to get my attention. It’s a strange position to be in—it felt like she was using her own health to see how fast I’d run to her.
I wanted to explain that I physically can’t be there every single second, but I bit my tongue. In the middle stage, logic fades, but the ability to push buttons often stays sharp. That moment replayed in my head afterward. It’s exhausting to feel like even a short break means being at her beck and call.
Processing the Moment
I talked to friends to get the emotion out and looked online to understand if this was the condition or something else. The hardest part was when she finally got up. For her, it was like nothing had happened. She was back to normal while the weight of her words remained.
The lesson learned is that she waits and listens for me because it gives her safety knowing I’m around. While holding back a reaction is an act of patience, I realized that a brief reassurance—letting her know I’ll always check on her—might ease that fear. At the same time, wanting five minutes of peace isn’t a failure; it’s just the reality of a role that has no “off” switch.
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